Today

Trying decide do better for myself, my family, my career and my community and yet today decision and about decision- 

As a family 

As a black human

As a Deaf human 

As Disable human 

As Two spirit human 

As a leader 

As a family 

The crab the crab the crab fairy Crab theory 

As you try to stay strong and wise 

These thinking things

bring short of breath

Bring confusion to heart 

Bring panic attack 

Bring The bullies energy back 

It like praying to God to get the demon off your neck so you can breathe and be alive. The chokehold you see on UFC... 

Decision on decision I don’t know what to do 

But I do know I won’t tap out. 

I gonna do my best to use every good light I have in my breath until I no long shine. 

Dating.. self reminder

Today is an self reminder -

Today reminder why I don’t date or trust people. 

If you date me you have to be able to keep up with an conversation. I believe in being friend first then into a romantic relationship. Often time it mean my mind doesn’t goes into thinking about romantic stuff, in fact naturally romantic feeling pure friendship-bond feeling. 

Some people know how to be friend but sometimes only know how to be sexual involved ..

Today confirmed my hole in my body...

This walk up black and disable woman..

She told me she was interested in me. She told me there no men or women after her. She told she is very busy but want me and her to get involved. 

Let go out... we go our 

Me: So I was like ok what your favorite tea 

Her: Depends on the specific situation. Why?

Me: Just wondering who you are and what kind of person you are..so what your favorite tea? 

Her: Depends on the specific situation. 

Me: Hmm

(The whole date for 4hours - Filled with that..)

But she laughs at my joke, she didn’t find me embarrassing for singing in public, she took time to understand my sign language - which bring me closer to her- she also show me her half her boobs! 

However I still don’t know much about her - 

How comes she ask me questions and I give dir